For years, meditation has been sold as the holy grail of healing, productivity, calm and inner peace. Sit down, close your eyes, and breathe. Sounds simple, right? Wrong.But here’s the truth no one talks about: meditation doesn’t work for everyone and that’s because we are all so beautifully and biologically different. So, if you’ve ever felt like a failure because you couldn’t “clear your mind,” you are not broken. And I’ve been there too.

I love to sleep. In fact, I love it so much that at 36 years old, in a very happy relationship and a very secure financial position, it is one of the main reasons I hesitate to step into motherhood. Call me selfish, but I function best with a lot of sleep. It keeps my autoimmune at bay. For years, I thought being a night owl was just who I was. I believed I was more creative at night, more productive after dark, more alive when the world was quiet. And to some extent, all of that was true. But the truth? It went deeper.

When I started somatic healing, everything in my life began to speed up and change. Suddenly, I could see it clearly: how much energy I had lost over the years focusing on men outside of me, curating myself to be more palatable, prettier, sexier, hoping they would choose me. Without realizing it, the male gaze had been dictating how I showed up in the world and online.

Today I want to share something I have been deeply fascinated by, a new framework I created that has completely shifted how I see mornings. I believe it will change the way you look at the gift each new day brings.

I get it, because I am you. You’ve slept seven, eight, nine hours, maybe even longer, but when your alarm goes off with a stacked day ahead, you are JUST not awake. Not only are you not awake but you want to go back to sleep badly. You’re tired, foggy, and nowhere near ready to start the day. “Sleep. I need more sleep.” I’ve said those exact words to my boyfriend more times than I can count.

Holidays and travelling are the BEST but if you’re anything like me and you’re a wellness girly (I’m also a Qualified Integrative Health Practitioner), then I also get it. It’s hard, I get it. You’re on holiday. You want to relax, enjoy, eat the croissants, drink the matchas, devour the Pizzas. But when you feel ‘off’, you feel worse.

Let’s talk somatic therapy and somatic healing because it’s still somewhat of an enigma in the wellness world (until you’ve finished reading this blog post). My name is Louise Rumball and I spent almost twenty years living with a chronic pain disorder called Fibromyalgia that I wholeheartedly believe has been predominantly healed through somatic healing and energetic therapy.

Before I started my healing journey, I had no idea how much of my language (and the language of everyone around me) was rooted in what I call Negative Energetic Imprints. Here are the 9 phrases you’ll never hear from a truly confident woman.

Today, ambitious women are trying to do it all - build the career, maintain the relationship, work out, keep a social life, eat well, meditate (hard fail for me), heal childhood wounds, listen to the Therapy Podcast, post on Instagram, and maybe squeeze in a facial, too because… anti-aging, am I right? This is without the reality of laundry, sheet changing, life admin - creating and raising children, and so much more.

As someone who was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder at the age of 18, with doctors telling me it was unhealable (‘and just to take SSRIs’), I have been on the most amazing journey of wellness, therapy, and somatic healing over the last 20 years. If you’re there right now, I see you. It’s the most amazing, scary, lonely and exhilarating place to be.

For most of my twenties, my mornings looked like this: wake up to the sound of my phone pinging at 6am, turn off airplane mode, immediately scroll through 57 unread WhatsApps, skip breakfast, chug coffee on an empty stomach, and launch straight into my inbox like the day was already on fire. I’d grab an espresso, head to the spinning bike, come out feeling euphoric, then head straight for my next coffee before going to the office.

The Type A overachiever can master just about anything through grit, determination and execution… until she hits that one blind spot. The love life that never quite clicks. The attraction to the avoidant, unavailable, loosely toxic man (repeatedly). The person that won’t commit. The on-off relationship with food, fitness, or rest. The spurts of giving it your all and then crashing hard. The self-care that always slips to the bottom of the list. And no matter how hard she tries to “fix” it, this weak spot just keeps circling back.

Yesterday, I spent hours and hours and hours writing, rewriting, and rewriting again an email to go out to 6,000 people on my mailing list (Type A perfectionists, unite). I finally hit send (cue a sigh of relief), and then someone replied to one of my emails: “I love you, but this feels like it was written by AI. I miss your original content.

Let’s talk about that electric midnight glow-up moment. You know the one. You’re lying in bed, scrolling through Pinterest and TikTok. Productivity hacks. “That girl” routines. Morning matcha, 5am workouts, dry brushing, skincare, hot girl walks. You’re high on dopamine and ideas. Your TikTok saved folder is overflowing.

For years, everyone I followed on TikTok and Instagram told me to “visualize my dream life,” “repeat the affirmations,” and act as if “my wish was already fulfilled,” with a bit of “repetitive scripting” thrown in for good measure.